Decision points

I received my latest lab results, today. Although my last AIM treatment was still composed of the newer, modified AIM formulation, I still had high expectations for continued improvement. Instead, my counts have moved in the wrong direction.

VL: 155,000 (up from 96,000)
CD-4: 202 (down from 285)

At this stage of the protocol, I had fully expected that my viral load would be at or near zero, and my CD-4 count would be closer to 500. For whatever reason, that is just not the case, and I am beginning to feel like it's time to consider more conventional treatments (as much as I would prefer to avoid a life-long drug regimen).

As mentioned last time, July's treatment will be composed of the original HIV formulation, and I have decided to give it a fair shake. However, if my August lab results show continued movement in the wrong direction, I will have to consider my options. Although so many other symptoms have improved over the last ten months, persistent minor symptoms (such as thrush, fatigue, memory issues and insomnia) continue to plague everyday life. Lately, I've also started to develop a persistent pain in my chest. That pain grows progressively worse in the afternoon and evening, and at times, makes me feel very faint.

I'm choosing to remain optimistic, but I can't help feeling some doubt where only hope once resided. I could use your support and encouragement during this time.